today is my day

Today is MY day!  I am ready to get this under control and be the healthiest that I can be.  

I was embarrassed...
My boss was telling me a story yesterday and man... These guys I work with SUCK at having the right thing to say at the right time.  Yesterday was not the day for the boss to pretty much tell me that I was FAT!  I mean... I know I am, and I am doing a lot about it.  Ok so the short version of the story... Boss saw me in my running clothes and asked if I was running to KEEP in shape!  I sorta chuckled and said well yeah, but really I am running to LOSE WEIGHT.  The "keep in shape" will come after I lose the weight.  He then went on to totally change the subject and talk about this woman he knew a long time ago.  He saw her recently and didn't recognize her because she had lost so much weight.  Then he tells me that she had some type of weight loss surgery.  What?! He said "She was a BIG girl... bigger than you" Then he started stumbling around for words.  I just told him to continue with his story and forget about it.  He kept apologizing and saying he shouldn't have said that.  I knew he didn't mean anything by it.  It wasn't that he said anything that bothered me... it was that he noticed!  He noticed the amount of weight that I have gained in the 3 years I have been working for him and not once has he ever made a comment about it until today.  It just stung a little.  I am over it now, but not so over it that i don't plan to do something about it.  

You see... the thing is... My awesome husband, Chris, he loves me unconditionally!  He doesn't care what I look like as long as I am happy with myself.  Well... He is extremely supportive of my efforts while he is eating his oreo cookies. You see what i'm dealing with??? Haha! He is very supportive of my efforts but still buys the "BAD" stuff!  I don't need that stuff in my house at all.  My willpower is... well isn't much at all!  

I am ready for a lifestyle change!  So... here we go!

Beginning Weight (Two months ago): 239.8
Today's Weight: 234.6
Results: Down 5.2 lbs
YaY!!!!

Urgh!!!!

So... today hasn't gone the way I planned.  Not many days do, but today was one of those crazy days where nothing goes right!  My diet sucks today and my boss is on my last nerve!  All I really want to do is curl up on the couch and watch tv for... well FOREVER. (Not really... but at least until this miserable day goes away... far far away)

Let me catch you up...

At the end of May I was diagnosed with Insulin Resistance (IR) as well as having an underacive Thyroid.  I had been telling my doctor that something had to be wrong for quite a while and he just kept telling me to keep doing what i was doing and things would work out.  My best friend, Cristy, and I were in the middle of training for a marathon (run/walk 26.2 miles for those of you that don't know) and I wasn't losing anything!!! In fact, I was even dieting with all of the exercising i was doing and nothing worked!!! Finally i got fed up with my doctor pushing my weight aside and i did something about it.  I called The Metabolic Center in Baton Rouge (recommended to me by a friend) and made my own appointment.  I didn't have time to wait nor did i want to wait for a referral. 

When I was finally able to get in to see the endocrinologist he took one look at me and told me i was Insulin Resistant.  He ran further tests to confirm his suspicions.  I thought... man we are in business!!! I am so glad someone has finally figured out what is wrong with me.  I was like.. just give me the meds and let me go on my way.  I will continue to exercise and take these new meds and that will be it... right?  Ha!!! WRONG! The doc and I DID NOT discuss a diet plan.  He told me to give myself two injections of Byetta per day and that was pretty much it. 

I went back in for a follow up visit in June.  I hadn't lost a single pound!  I was so disgusted.  He said that was good as long as I wasn't gaining weight.  What???? I want to lose weight.  I am active and there should be no reason i'm not losing weight.  He gave me more meds (Metformin) and increased the Byetta injections. 

Well it is now the end of July and I have lost 1 pound!  How is that even possible? Well... you see it wasn't until I went to see my gyno that I discovered The Insulin Resistance Diet book. He told me to buy the book and cut out a good portion of the carbs that I am eating and that should work.  Well... that is why i am here.  I need to be held accountable for what i do to my body.  I need to put it all out there and hopefully that will help me lose this unwanted weight. 

I think that is enough for one day!  See you tomorrow!

I am SOOOOOOO Ready to Shine!!!!!

Amber